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So I'm sitting here in one of my classrooms... my 5 reading students are hanging out in the back having a good time, hoping in the back of their minds that Ms. Byrd doesn't yell at them to sit down and do their work anytime soon (I don't plan on it today). I've had this blog account set up for a while now...using it originally as a means to keep up with the blogs of my amazing brothers and sisters. I'm sitting here today thinking that maybe I should start writing something every now and then... I suppose it's worth a try.

Just a side note: one of my students just walked up to the front of the room singing "You're So Lonely" to me... apparently my students don't think I have a life outside of the 4 walls of this classroom.

Anyway...

I love and serve God.
He's a big God.
A larger than life God.
An end all, be all God.
He's the ultimate planner- the ultimate agenda.
His will- my fuel.
He created all of us, all of this- heavens and earth.
He has resurrection power- He can raise the dead.
He gives life and light to those who are dead and in darkness.

These statements are all true and I believe them all. This overriding concept that God is everything is a concept that's hard for the human mind to wrap around - at least it is for mine.

I've been learning that emotion is not what it's all about.
There are times when I don't feel like doing something. When I don't feel like studying my bible. When I don't feel like meditating on His Word. When I don't feel God's presence...

...but what does that mean?

Does that mean that I just go my own way until I feel Him next?
Does that mean that I don't pray and communicate with Him during these droughts?
Does that mean that I am less of a believer than the person next to me?

No. It doesn't mean anything of the like...

It means that I need to focus more on His will.
It means that I need to pray and communicate with Him more than ever before.
It means that I am a human. But doesn't ever mean that my salvation is diminishing.

God is not a god of condition. He's there always.

"Fear not, for I am with you,
Be not dismayed, for I am your
God.
I will strengthen you,
Yes, I will help you,
I will uphold you with My
righteous right hand."
ISAIAH 41:40

If I never feel God again...will I never seek Him again? will I never look to Him for answers again? will I choose not to love Him?

...i think not.